What am I beyond angry about?
CANCER
Having journeyed with ovarian cancer for most of 2011, I face another possibly more gruelling journey with my sinister companion again.
What were 'this feels odd' symptoms have manifested themselves as 'OMG' symptoms.
These are similar to, but much worse, symptoms to those I had just over two years ago.
My abdomen resembles a 37 week pregnancy. It is so swollen that it is pressing up into my diaphragm restricting my breathing and eating. It is pressing down on my bladder and bowel causing a huge haemorrhoid. I hurt, I cannot breathe, I cannot eat.
These symptoms have developed in about ten days.
Tomorrow I go to the hospital. I shall have blood tests, an ultrasound scan and the many litres of fluid will be slowly drained from my abdomen. This will help get me fit so I can travel to Barcelona for my special little holiday.
Yes, I shall still go to Barcelona, it is very important to do these things, especially when you have to live with cancer.
I shall blog my new journey.
Mr G, T, J, R, M, R, E, E and the one to come, you are the reason I choose the journey to try to save my life. I love you all forever.
It is so hard to add a comment here. Those of us who haven't been on this journey can only imagine how it feels and even then I guess that reality must be so much harder than we can possibly imagine. Draw strength from those around you who love you and those of us who are your virtual friends but nonetheless care deeply and are rooting for you. We all hope and pray that this is not what it seems.
ReplyDeleteThank you Lynda, you have said it all. I have nothing to add except my love. Anne xx
ReplyDeleteAs Lynda said and wishing you all the luck in the world. xxx
ReplyDeleteMy feelings are of anger that you are facing this horrid condition and my heart goes out to you again sending you my best ...wishing you energy and defiance...
ReplyDeleteLove and strength
Alison P xxxxxxx
Oh Ali.. I am so sorry you have to face this again. I will think of you and send prayers as you carry on with the journey. Lots of love Anne Cowan xxx
ReplyDeleteOh darling, I wish I could be there with you right now. Sending you all my love and energy. Please know that I'm thinking of you and Richard - arohanui xxx
ReplyDeleteSorry to be so late in picking this up. Angry! I'm furious on your behalf. However, you are a strong 'kick ass' woman & we are ll here ad well. Cancer - diesn't stnd a chance! Hugs xxx
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