Tuesday, 19 March 2013

Beyond angry...

What am I beyond angry about?

CANCER

Having journeyed with ovarian cancer for most of 2011, I face another possibly more gruelling journey with my sinister companion again.

What were 'this feels odd' symptoms have manifested themselves as 'OMG' symptoms.

These are similar to, but much worse, symptoms to those I had just over two years ago.

My abdomen resembles a 37 week pregnancy. It is so swollen that it is pressing up into my diaphragm restricting my breathing and eating. It is pressing down on my bladder and bowel causing a huge haemorrhoid. I hurt, I cannot breathe, I cannot eat.

These symptoms have developed in about ten days.

Tomorrow I go to the hospital. I shall have blood tests, an ultrasound scan and the many litres of fluid will be slowly drained from my abdomen. This will help get me fit so I can travel to Barcelona for my special little holiday.

Yes, I shall still go to Barcelona, it is very important to do these things, especially when you have to live with cancer.

I shall blog my new journey.

Mr G, T, J, R, M, R, E, E and the one to come, you are the reason I choose the journey to try to save my life. I love you all forever.